Sunday, June 27, 2010

谢谢你们.=)

昨天去Tasik Shah Alam的一个读书活动(很白痴的活动)时,它还没开始,我便和按霓与慧欣去走走逛逛。

可是,看来看去都是吃喝的摊子。=.=

由于我们很馋嘴(其实是我馋嘴罢了),我们便买了一大堆食物和饮料来吃喝。

首先,我们买了三支冰淇淋,一人一只。
过后,我们继续走走。
然后,我们又买了samosa(不要问我那是什么)和一个不知名的糕点。
因为它们卖色不错,我们便买一个来试试。
嗯,samosa很好吃啊啊啊啊啊。
所以,我们又买了三个samosa。呵呵呵。xD
(这算是一大堆食物吗吗?o.O)

回到我们的草席,我们应该是开始读书的
但是,
我们却疯狂地开起野餐来。=.=
我们把买来的食物和自己不约而同带来的饼干糖果放在草席上,然后一直吃,吃,吃。
中二的junior也和我们一起三八呢,呵呵呵。
为了装模作样,我们便拿书出来读。=.=
我当然是带我最心爱的红蜻蜓系列小说啦。xD

活动结束,我们又去乱乱跑乱乱跳(?)。
这一次,我想买饮料。
但是,队伍很很很很长。=.=
我本来想打退堂鼓。我不是介意等(因为当时很无聊),但是,我担心耽误了慧欣按霓。
但是,她们却很了解地答应陪我一起等。
谢谢你们,我很感动。
=)

其实,我并不是很享受这一个活动而去参加(虽然是有一定的成分在啦)。
因为这一个活动让我有机会和朋友出去走走。=)
我很享受和她们在一起的感觉,很疯狂,很自由。
你想说什么都行,你想干什么都行。
虽然我甚少有机会和她们出去玩,但是,和她们在一起真的很愉快。 
虽然有时只能当一个聆听者,但是,能够参与已经足够。
太过介意,反而失去。
以前,我就是不懂这个道理,而失去了很多东西。

慧欣,按霓,颖慧,恩宁,
谢谢你们给我的欢乐。
你们让我发觉到,其实我也可以很幸福。
我知道我不是一个很好的朋友,或许说,是一个令人很负担的东西。
但是,我会尝试去改变。
我知道我说了很多次,但不要说我'只会说,不会做'啦。:(
因为它真的很难嘛=(

无论如何,衷心的感谢你们。
请原谅我的多心与幼稚,请原谅我的不体谅。
谢谢你们,也很对不起你们。
对不起,谢谢。
=)





Love.

The last glimpse.

Maybe my wounds are healed.
But,










I don't think I can smile before you anymore.


 

Saturday, June 26, 2010

For previous one.

Well, THAT'S OVER.

At least, my heart continue jumping, my blood stop bleeding, my tears stop dropping.

Do hope you can recover soon.=)

I'm sincere. Seriously.






CHEER UP!=) 






Believe me, you're the best one.
(although i dont think you nid me to rephrase it =.=)



 And,



thanks for cheering me up too.=)
  
 

 

彻底绝望。=(

When I knew what happened, I know I MUST do something.
I tried to do so, but when we are having eye contact, you smiled bitterly and turned away from me.
I don't know what should I do then.
So, I told myself, mayb you're in a bad mood to talk to me.
Alright then, I surrender.

When I reached home from KUMON, I sms-ed you.
Just a simple sms:"Heyy, are you okayy?=)" to show that I concerned about you.
But, in the end, you did not give me any reply.
So, I HAVE to tell my myself again, you're still in the bad mood to reply me.

The next day, she asked about you. Feeling worried, I sms-ed you again.
I waited. Patiently.
But, you still didn't BOTHER to answer me.
Fine then, since so I MUST NOT DISTURB YOU.

At last, without any expectation, YOU REPLIED.
But, what you sent me was just an empty message. 
Feeling curious, I replied to find out what you wanted to tell me.
I shouldn't take this step.

And, finally, you replied.
But it was THIS message that made me TRULY DISAPPOINTED.
My heart froze, COMPLETELY.
There it goes,
you replied,
"== 无聊".

I don't know what you mean by that.
As a friend, I just wanted to comfort you, to help you, because you did so to me too when I'm in the hole of disappoinment.
I just wanted to do so, WITHOUT ANY OTHER REASONS.
But, why did you interpret it as if I AM BUSYBODY-ING?

Now, don't blame me if I'm rude.
Mayb you are disappointed, very disappointed, with me——or whatever, but do you really think before, THAT I MIGHT FEEL SO TOO——IN RETURN?
And, I still can't understand.
Mayb, I ought NOT to understand it.

I MUST let it go, by now.
I am feeling hopeless.
We wanted to help you, but it is YOU yourself that forgo yourself.
I can't do anything, since you think I AM ANNOYING.
Although I don't have any bad intentions.
I just wanted to help you, THAT'S ALL.

I can't make sure that I can smile before you again in the future.
You made me bleed, which it bleeds hysterically.



I'm crying.


Sunday, June 20, 2010

surprise,i suppose?

yesterday got my grade 6 ballet examination result.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=O
OHMYGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!=OOOOO

OHMYGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!












I GET A DISTINCTION!!!=OOOOOO



OHMYGOD,i cant believe it!
it was grade 6 lah, GRADE 6!
i get 83 marksss!!!!
OHMYGOD!!!

because i tink i did the exam VERY BADLY lah.
haha =D.
i summore when dance the bar like blur blur de =.=
dont' know the examiner felt i am a idiot or not,such a simple instrutions also cant accomplish. ish =.=

anyway,

CHEERS FOR ME!!!xD
thank god =)












I ♥  BALLET!!! xD

Friday, June 18, 2010

I'm pleading you. PLEASE.

每一次,我都对我自己感到震惊。
我竟然,在搜寻你的影子?!
无论在什么场合,什么地方,我竟然会期望看到你。
我竟然会那样,我竟然会。

虽然每一次,我总是成功压抑了自己,但是,
我还是觉得好悲哀。
我不知道为什么, 而你当然也不知道为什么。
因为,你根本就不知道,我到底在做什么。
你压根儿都不了解我,但这是正常的。
因为,我不是她。你的她。

每一次,你都跟我分享关于她的点点滴滴。
但我从不吭声,因为我知道我没那个权力。
我永远,都只能做一个听众,或好一点儿,一个配角。
主角,永远,不可能是我。

我不知道我应该如何继续压抑。
但我知道我绝对不可以坦说出来。
我不能,我不可以。
我没有那个福气与命运。

所以,请你告诉我,我应该怎么办,好吗?
我不敢确定,我能不能继续面对你。
我很矛盾,也很痛苦。
我不想继续这样下去。我不要。

如果你是为我好,请你离开我。
虽然,你一定会很震惊,但我还是要平静地对你说这个决定。
离开我,就好像我要离开你那样。
转身一走,潇洒一挥,剩下我,在你背后哭泣。

Can you do it, please?
I don't want to be broke down before you. I don't want to.

I'm pleading you.
PLEASE.










不要问我那个主角是谁啦。告诉你,我只是想卖弄我的文笔而写这个post的。相信吗?




相信我啦。

邓秀茵vs许有彬

以前,我喜欢的作者是冰
但是,我现在喜欢的作者是邓秀茵和许友彬!=DDDDDD
freakingly ♥ them. haha!xD

读了他们那么多本书,我开始去比较他们俩。
这是我的比较结果:-

邓秀茵
我觉得,她的题材选得很准确。她的题材很适合我们这些学生读者,尤其是女生,更是成功地触到她们心里面最深处的那根神经。她的笔法固然好,但是我觉得,若跟许有彬比较,是有一点儿略逊一筹咯。但是,因为她的题材丰富,所以成功虏获我们的芳心(?)。=)

许友彬
我认为,他的笔法真的很好很好。笔法非常幽默,但幽默中却带一点讽刺与挖苦。我很喜欢。=)但他的题材,我认为它是有一点成熟啦。就是说,我觉得它的题材较适合中学生读,但邓秀茵的中小学的学生都适合读咯。就好像《把你带走》里,虽然他写主角是小学生,但有些人却认为以他的写法,应该写中学生才较搭配。但是,他的语法幽默风趣,读起来实在回味无穷,毫不乏味。xD

所以我有时在想,若把邓秀茵的题材让许有彬写,效果会不会比较好呢?

  
可是过后我又想不不不,若是这样,写出来的东西就不浪漫了(?)。



哈哈。=)



哎呀这些只是我的意见啦。你们当然可以对这些意见嗤之以鼻,或选择不接受,更可以反驳我。我相信这里有更多造诣比我还要深得多的的邓秀茵与许有彬的读者,可以给我更宝贵的看法与意见。我这是在抛砖引玉,哈哈哈。


哎我说张凯宁啊,你最后一句话说得最适当啦。你根本就不会写小说,凭什么在这里瞎给意见?







闭嘴啦你。









Wednesday, June 16, 2010

It's over!

My grade 8 practical exam was finally over and I AM SO HAPPY!

WHEE!

WHEE!

WHEEEEEEEEE!!!xDDDDD

and,

i must announce that:


I ♥ my piano teacher so BADLYYYYYY!!!!
I ♥ YOU, TEACHER BELLA!!
BELLAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
(not the bella in twilight, okay.)

I ♥ you guys,i freakingly ♥ you!!!
xDDDDDD!!!


Just,








I think i did my exam very badly.=(

Thursday, June 10, 2010

糖果,糖果


这系列的糖果有三种口味,有黄梨口味,青苹果口味和葡萄口味。
在这三种口味之中,我最喜欢青苹果口味,因为我觉得她的甜度和酸度恰到好处。=DDDDD
而我最不喜欢的是黄梨口味,因为我觉得它太酸了啦。=(
所以,每当我拆开这系列糖果的糖果纸时,我会心跳加速,紧张不已,因为我担心自己会拿到黄梨口味的,也期望自己会拿到青苹果口味的。
拿到黄梨口味时,悲痛欲绝;拿到青苹果口味时,欣喜欲狂
可是,最后我还是会把糖果吃进肚子里=)哈哈哈!

但是,

这是不是所谓的无聊

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Guide me, please.

My grade 8 piano examination is around the corner and i dont know what to do.
Seriously,I felt so bad.I FELT WORSE.

First, my exam pieces.all my 3 exam pieces have a similarity:if my hands' mood are good,my pieces are perfect.but if otherwise,it was OHMYGOD.ish.i cant even control my hands,how can i control the pieces?what i can do now is only practice,practice,practice.ish =.=

Second,my scales.STUPID SCALES!I HATE THEM!it is irritating enough to have MAJOR&MINOR SCALES.but wtf, ABRSM stil add in other type of scales!!third apart,sixth apart,arpeggios,dominant 7th,diminished 7th—and whatever SHIT.nothing to do put so many things for us to practice =.= BOLEH MATI TAU!!=(

Third,sight-reading.since i touch the piano my sight-reading was TERRIBLE.everytime when my teacher gave me a piece to play,although the piece is SUPPOSE to be a veri hilarious song, but through my hands, it has no difference with SHIT.SHIT SHIT SHIT.I'm done this time =(

Forth,oral.oh gosh the hear lower part and sight-singing i was totally OUT.my hearing wasnt good lah T.T.same to do with modulation.T.T.lastly is the discussion.my teacher did taugh me what to say, but everytime i was asked to say something, my mind was blurred and miserable.then the words came out from my mouth are also unorganized.ish =.=

Lastly,my pieces AGAIN!my a:1 is the simplest one,yet i stil dont have any confidence on it.=.= my b:2,according to the trail-examinor,i need more FEELING.THE FEELING OF EXCITEMENT.ish,where to find such a feeling while playing piano!=( but no choice i stil tried to do something loh.but the result is:NO REACTION.ish.my c:6,yes,i know,i know it should be jazzy,i tried hard edy lahhhhhh.but my teacher said it was NOT ENOUGH.the trail-examinor summore wan me to be 'hiao'.'HIAO'!!WTF??!!even piano oso need to develop this kind of skill?ISH ISH ISH!!!=.=

Futhermore,i nid more STAMINA.everytime i practice the piano my hands are so pain and hot(?).OHMYGOD!the feeling was HORRIBLE.I dont know how am I going to survive during the examination.=.=.

And,i felt so bad for my teacher.She's such a good and gentle teacher and yet I'm still in this kind of condition.I really dont want to disappoint her.I really dont want to =(


But,

I'm sure to fail this time.i'm SURE.I'm done for this time ahhhhhh!!

ISH ISH ISH!!=.=

Guide me, please.

以前的我

每当读Science chapter 4时,我总会想起我自己是怎么来的。哎呀不要讲我想太远。这是常理啊。

说起来,以前的我好像过了一个又一个的鬼门关(?)才来到这世界的呢。

据我妈说,当初她去scan的时候,医生诊断肚里是有两个zygote的。换句话说,我妈其实怀有双胞胎。可是,过后再scan多一次时,却发现只剩下一个zygote(就是我)。为什么会不见,我妈也不知道。

过后,我渐渐成长。当到一个阶段的时候,胎儿都会自动把头转下来并朝向vagina,我哥也不例外。但是,我没有。当时我妈就别提有多担心了。但时,令我更震惊的是:我的脖子竟被umbilical cord缠着,还缠了两圈。两圈!我冒了一身冷汗。若我当时真的把头转过来,那我岂不是被勒死?我不禁打了一个冷颤。

没办法,妈妈只好用剖腹的方法来把我生下。可是,我不知道我为什么那么霸道,早不生晚不生,竟然要劳烦别人凌晨3时来把我诞下!啊啊啊啊啊啊。哎呀算了。反正当时我并不能控制我自己(?)。

可我出生后,又有一个问题。我的小腿内侧竟然有一个大大的胎记!红红的一大片,着实把我妈吓了一跳。可到我三岁时,那胎记不见了!=)哈哈哈=DDD。据我妈说,那个胎记可能是另一个zygote(就是我的胞胎)附在我脚上。所以,当我注视着我的小腿时(不要问我为什么注视),我就会想起那个zygote,那个新生命。一个新生命附在我脚上然后不见了(可能罢了啦)!想起来都有点毛骨悚然。=(

再说再说,我真的很奇怪。我幼儿到一岁时都没有长头发!OHMYGOD.过后,我两岁的时候头发是长出来了,但是长出来的竟是棕色的头发!害我妈妈抱着我的时候,以为我爸爸是外国人。

还有还有,我哥哥真的都遗传了我爸妈的精华。姣好的轮廓,壮硕的身材,所以很多人都他说好帅好帅。相反地,看看我,普通的一张脸,矮小的身躯,根本和我哥是天渊之别。=(

哎,你要说我吃不到葡萄讲葡萄酸也可以啦。
唉=(.


怎么我总觉得我是frangment组成的胎儿?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

weddings♥


我表姐很漂亮,对吧?xD

最近有很多表兄弟姐妹结婚啊。去婚礼去到我都有点习惯了=X
无论如何,突然想在这里分享一下他们的结婚照。


我大姨的女儿和她的丈夫。现在已有六月大的胎儿=DD


我三姨的大女儿与她丈夫。她天生就是美人胚子xD


我三姨二女儿与她丈夫。我很喜欢这张照片!!!=D


我二舅的大女儿(右二)与双方父母和丈夫。她很高啊啊啊且身材高挑=)

以后还有更多呢。真的好多婚礼要去啊。
可又不是自己结婚(讲废话)

无论如何,
祝他们永远幸福快乐,永固爱河!=)






人与人能在那么五花八门的社会里相遇且答应共伴一生,那是多么奇妙的事。

你以为你是谁?

你以为你是谁?
人家什么都比你胜得很多筹,你凭什么和别人一较高低?
高度,文学,修养,样貌,你那一点比得上别人?
我问你,你那一点比得上别人?

你想当她?
妙想天开,一派胡言!
D:

张凯宁,醒醒吧。
她不可能是你。
不要妄菲自薄,自不量力。

让他走吧。
放手吧。

真心的呐喊,感动的言语♥

慧欣♥
颖慧♥
恩宁♥
安霓♥
毖沄♥
秉怀♥
佩萱♥
凯忠♥
建哲♥
诗韵♥
为恳♥
玮双♥
伟鸣♥
保胜♥

I ♥heart you,guys!=D

虽然我时常扮得不在乎你们,虽然你们总觉得我孤立我自己,不参与你们,对你们冷淡,但你们在我心里,
永远永远都是我最珍藏的知己。

我发誓,我真的那样觉得。
相信我,就好像我相信你们不会伤害我一样。=D
不要误会,我没有讲你们伤害了我。
只是,我突然想post my lists of friends on my blog.

♥heart you guys FOREVER!!xD

*漏掉的名字恕不称呼