I tried to do so, but when we are having eye contact, you smiled bitterly and turned away from me.
I don't know what should I do then.
So, I told myself, mayb you're in a bad mood to talk to me.
Alright then, I surrender.
When I reached home from KUMON, I sms-ed you.
Just a simple sms:"Heyy, are you okayy?=)" to show that I concerned about you.
But, in the end, you did not give me any reply.
So, I HAVE to tell my myself again, you're still in the bad mood to reply me.
The next day, she asked about you. Feeling worried, I sms-ed you again.
I waited.
But, you still didn't BOTHER to answer me.
Fine then, since so I MUST NOT DISTURB YOU.
At last, without any expectation, YOU REPLIED.
But, what you sent me was just an empty message.
Feeling curious, I replied to find out what you wanted to tell me.
And, finally, you replied.
But it was THIS message that made me TRULY DISAPPOINTED.
My heart froze, COMPLETELY.
There it goes,
you replied,
"== 无聊".
I don't know what you mean by that.
As a friend, I just wanted to comfort you, to help you, because you did so to me too when I'm in the hole of disappoinment.
I just wanted to do so, WITHOUT ANY OTHER REASONS.
But, why did you interpret it as if I AM BUSYBODY-ING?
Now, don't blame me if I'm rude.
Mayb you are disappointed, very disappointed, with me——or whatever, but do you really think before, THAT I MIGHT FEEL SO TOO——IN RETURN?
And, I still can't understand.
Mayb, I ought NOT to understand it.
I MUST let it go, by now.
I am feeling hopeless.
We wanted to help you, but it is YOU yourself that forgo yourself.
I can't do anything, since you think I AM ANNOYING.
Although I don't have any bad intentions.
I just wanted to help you, THAT'S ALL.
I can't make sure that I can smile before you again in the future.
You made me bleed, which it bleeds hysterically.
I'm crying.
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