Thursday, December 30, 2010

EMO.=.=

AH WHEYYYYY.
-,-

Sometimes (or everytime lol) I do type emo posts, but I'M NOT EMO.=.= I'm either frustrated, or writing out my feelings only.

PLEASE, PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE DONT LABEL ME AS AN EMO ONES! 
T.T

I'm trying my best to not emo FROM NOW ON.

and 

please dont be the one that killed my confidence.


Thank you.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

可以不要这样吗?

你要说我被踢出来了,都好。
还是想说我已经没有资格了,都好。
或是想说我已经堕落了,都好。

但是,

可以不要这样明了吗?

是。
当初我选择退出,但后来,
我已通过主席想要再次加入。
我已经很明确地告诉自己,我在做什么,

不需要你们一次又一次的动摇!

我受不了!
一次又一次,问我一样的问题,
而每一问,都把我的心刺痛一次。
我很清楚我的立场,好吗?
可以不要一直来向我求证吗?
想知道答案,明年你们就会知晓!
拜托不要做无谓的功夫!

你们应该很清楚,我当初逃避是为了什么。
是为了不想遇见什么!
可是,你们可以心照不宣就好吗?
我真的知道我是在为什么而掉头走人!!!

原本从日本回来的好心情,
已经彻底的被破坏。
彻-底-的。
请不要低估你们对我的影响力!!

我再次声明,
我没有退出。
明年,我还是会继续奋斗。
只是,我不会那么活跃。
因为,我想我想要必须逃避一些人。

我已经声明我的立场。
拜托,


不要再让我黯然一次!

 

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I'm back!:D

I'm back!
Yes, I'm definitely back.
do you guys miss me?xD *say yes please
 :P
There was definitely fun, :DDD
and I really miss Japan.:(
what was more,

I miss my host family badddddddly.
:(

The day we depart, we cried like mad,
and we definitely miss each other.:(  

Well, when I was there, I did miss my family and also Malaysia FOOD.*only food kay
food at Japan was nice, and,


my host family is really kawaiiiii


When I was in Japan, I do miss Malaysia FOOD,
but in Malaysia,
I miss everything in Japan.:(
seriously :(



Okay, most of you guys will surely ask, "SOUVENIERS!"xD
hahaha.
okay, i did buy many many things,
but mostly are sweets and chocolates and biscuits and something eatable.
the things like key chains or anything else were expensive like hell that I cant buy so much =.=
sorry.:(

I'll definetley update my blog with posts about Japan.:D
but it will take a long time haha :P
so, please wait patienly and

sorry for the inconvenience.xD



Lastly,



I miss Japan :(



and,

I love my host family very very much
You guys will surely not be forgotten in my entire life.
I heart you guys, and,

I miss you all dearlyyyy.:(

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Off I go!:)

Off I go~!!
Nagoya, here I come!:)

This saturday is going to KLIA for orientation.
OMG, nervous man :(
My flight will be on the next day, Sunday.
OMG, byk nervous man :(

First time sitting aeroplane to OVERSEAS lahh duhhhhhhhh.
SANGAT TAKUT TAU =.=
feel very scare and worried lahhhh.
duhhhhhh =.=

what was more, PMR RESULT WILL BE OUT ON 23 OF DEC!!:(
WTF @.@
I cant take my result myself, summore gotta worry about it when I'm at japan @.@
SIGH!!ewww :(

Whatever.
Although now I seemed very normal, sleep, eat, drink, go for tuition,
but I'M DAMN SCARE INSIDE.=.=
AHHHHHH.
scare scare scare :(

Haiyaaaaaaaaa.
whatever lah.
I shall try to get use to it~!!;DD

Teruhito ♥
Yuka ♥
Nami ♥
Yumi ♥

Here I come!:D
 Nami is so cute
:) 

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Special wish ;)

SOT ♥ 加油!
:)

You guys' performance is nearer and nearer!
On the grand date of 18 of dec LOL.
Too bad I cant take part in it :(
sad betul.(for me only lah)

Anyway,
ALL THE BEST & JIAYOU!!:DDD
You guys surely can do it, can surely can do BETTER than us!
:DDD
 
Although I knew you guys would never ever saw this post,
but I still wanted to give you guys my special wish here.
:)

SOT ♥ 加油!
我会在远方献上我的祝福 :)


深深怀念。


OMGG~!!

OMGGGGGG.
Helppppppppp!!!

This friday is my contempt dance performance and yet,
I STILL DONT KNOW ANY INCH OF STEPS YET!!!!!!
:(

OMGGGGG.
I'm gonna die this time!x.x

Save me, Help me!
T.T

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Specially for you! xD

me and sze yien!
 :DDDD
haha, my favourite drink xDD
(edited by yiien) 

her notifications spammed by me haha!
:D

My beloved sze yien
(好像有点恶心haha)

Everlasting Friends!
:)

Love. 

囧。

囧。=.=

当初我第一次看到这个词时,我完全不知道他是什么意思。(现在也只明白了一半 =.=)
然后,我想要查这个词的意思,所以发狂似的找了起来。
可是我的部首笔画很差的啊啊啊啊啊 =.=
其实是我懒惰找。(我再说什么zzz)

然后就只能用拼音找了。
当时我真的不知道为什么,想到这个词的拼音,就是
JIONG.
=.=
接着就兴致勃勃(?)地找这个拼音。
谁知道,
......
它真的是这个拼音!!!!
=.=
囧囧囧囧囧!! 
-,-
HAHAHAHAHA.
=.=

.........


其实我打了那么多
只想要说一句
我的第六感蛮不错很好的咧!!=.=
就是要炫耀炫耀一下,因为我从没想过竟会那么巧。=.=
幼稚 -,-

有时候
跟着心走
会有意想不到的结果呢。
也有些时候
越荒谬的事
奇迹出现的机率也越高。

:)




我知道这篇很无聊也很幼稚。=.=

所以,


请配合我吧。xD

Thursday, December 2, 2010

心灰意冷。

我一直很努力扮演我的角色。
一直都在奋斗着。
就在我以为我已经接近成功时,
我才发现,
原来那只是昙花一现。

原来我在所有人的眼中,何止是一个小不点,还是一个乞人憎。
是的,全都是我的错,我不对。

我何尝不想快乐的生活?
但是我真的不知道,为什么我已经那么努力了却还是原地踏步?
我到底该怎么做?

是的,我不应该来到这个世上。
因为即使我多努力,到最后,还是一样会打回原形。

对,我不能说失望,因为我没有那个资格。
可是,当了这么多年的朋友,我万万没想到,我在你心中,竟是这样的一个人!!!

是不是我的错?
是我作恶多端,罪该万死?

消失得无疾无踪,
才是上策。
我祈求您实现我的愿望。


就这样。

Starbucks dream :(

Starbucks Setia Alam :DD

几乎每一天,我都会经过这个令我向往的地方。
但是,我就是一次也不能踏进去 :(
啊啊啊啊啊。T.T

My dearest drinkkkkkkkk

THIS IS WHAT I DREAMT FOR!!!! D:
为了阻止我继续发梦,我老妈子和老哥子就每天给我灌劝告。=.=
说什么很贵啦喝了会肥啦不值得啦。
好好,我知道我这个夙愿很奢侈=.=
但是,我真么无法抗拒我对它的思念啊T.TTTTT


Starbucks, starbucks.
A dream :(
 

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Reduce Weight =X

Well, I DID say before I wanted to REDUCE WEIGHT.
Especially in front of PEI SHIUAN & WEI KEN, I think I repeated it for N times already.=.=
BUT BUT BUT,


I'M STILL EPIC FAILED!!!
D:

听我老妈子说,我从小就已经很很很贪吃了。=.=
据说有一次我庆祝生日的时候,因为我的家人说在开始吃前当然是要先拍照,所以我对这事物只能虎视眈眈,眼看手勿动。
当时这种等待,据我老妈子说,对我是多么痛苦的一个煎熬 =.=
我老妈子可不是信口雌黄,当时我真的因为没得吃而大发脾气,还拒绝拍照。=.=
到最后大家只好依了我啦=.=
虽然当时我还小,但是现在回想起来我还是觉得很丢脸 =.=
算了算了,原谅我吧 ._.

所以我说,
以前的我已经那么贪吃,
现在我还想减肥?
那简直就是,妄想吧 =.=
如果和以前比较,我现在的情况已经很不错了:P
虽然我还是很贪吃啦。呵呵呵

唉唉,我到底怎样才能瘦下来啊 O.O
面对食物,我何止不能抗拒,还为它着迷!!zzzzz

所以呢,在我的词典里,

当模特儿>>妄想。
穿上礼服>>妄想。
穿上无袖衣服和短裤>>妄想。
苗条身材>>想都不敢想。
瘦身>>遥不可及的梦想!!!!!

啊啊啊啊啊 T.T