Knew it, better NOT.

我想一切很难恢复原状。
纵使她说过其实是没有事情的。
纵使她说过叫我不要想太多。
但是，我认为我不能不这么做。

很多事情，我是不知道的。
我明白不知道会比较好，但那根本就是在自欺欺人。
根本就是。

我没有勇气再找人倾诉。
不是信不过，而是已经失去了全盘托出的那份勇气。
自己承受，吞噬悲伤，就够了。
虽然他们会在一旁喝着饮料看着好戏，但我认为，我不能反驳。
我决定认输。

希望下一次上网时，再回望一次，我不会再因为你们而伤心。
我绝对认为我是扫兴的。
我不知道，这一次，是不是又是我。
我害怕知道真相的时刻。

不要烦我。
不要吵我。
不要再安慰我。你说的，我很难相信。
不是你在说谎，而你的解释很难有信服力...

我是在emo.
不过，我想，做会把所有东西扛在身上的人吧。
自己烦恼，会比较好...
不会影响他人的情绪。

Sorry another sad post again.
=X.

我想，现在我应该从梦中醒来了。
那，根本就只是南柯一梦。
一个很漂亮绚丽的梦。

我可以伪装我不受影响。
我可以说我很感谢那曾经的时光。
但是，我还能够挽留什么？

手中的沙，虽珍贵，但哗啦一声，就会消失得无影无踪。

他要往哪儿去，由不得你去追究。

挥手致意。

a little walk :D

Today went for library stock checking from 8.30 pm to 5 pm.
OMG, tired dao @.@
but finally we finished it~:D
and then alas we ended up sitting there chatting and laughing like the photo above.LOL.
summore go for eating and drinking =.=
and, I'm sry but I MUST say that, STOCK CHECK SIBEH SIEN.=(

Finally 5 pm and I and wei ken took a drive home on shiuan's car.
Then we followed her to pick up her mum at dunno wher.
But her mum is not done yet, so her brother(the driver) asked us to wait in a dunno what shop(?).
but we go to gaigai.xD

After shiuan top-up at 7-eleven, we headed for 99 speedmart :) LOL.
and then at there I bought RIBENA :D
whee, miss cold drinks soooo much.x)

KINNA pei shiuan.

wei ken. LOL

Then they gave me a new name: 张水桶。LOL

because I kept moaning I WANT TO DRINK COLD DRINKKKSSS then wei ken said so.=.=

haha but actually, I like this name :D

Then went back to the dunno what shop to wait for shiuan's mum.

There, we chatted and laughed and gossiped and smiled :D

talk sooo much that I'm feeling even more tired =.=

LOL.

Finally, shiuan's mum okay le :D

then we go fetch her another brother and fetch us home.

In the car I be ta han, slept.x)

pig~

Well, it's nothing actually.

But my first little walk and chattings after PMR was with them and it felt really nice :D

I WANT MORE OUTINGS @.@

but mama, can you give me more freedom please? =.=

before I end this post, I would like to share a pic.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!! KINASAI KAI ZHONG!!!

Well, I and shiuan was disturbing him from the second floor and shiuan said, "splash water if you dare~"

Then he really spalshed it!! LOL

and I quickly took a pic of it, the time 拿捏得 sooo ngam ngam so I could obtain such good effect.:D

cheers for me~xD

AHHAHAHA.

but feeling tired, jeez =.=

Lastly,

I respect you as my parents 

but 

please give me more freedom. :(

grade 8!:D

My grade 8 piano practical examination result sheet. WHEE ♥ 

BLAH, I know it is already a past tense to me now. It's already a history to me :D wheeeee. Well, I just feel like boasting xD although I did not get a DISTINCTION like someone did (no offence) x), and just get a PASS instead.=X aiya suan liau. I'm really very satisfied with my result now.(self-comforting?LOL)

Well, I would also like to do a analysis like Ccy did.xD
Exam pieces
a:1
This is the piece that I start practicing 3 WEEKS BEFORE EXAM.=.= OMG, I'm really dead right? I also dont know why I'm so BRAVE to dily-daly like that.=.= aiya suan liau, I just try my best lor, 反正its a baroque pieces~and in the end i stil can get marks above pass-21 marks.WOOHOO, cheers for me xD
b:2
This one!!!I put MANY effort on it and yet I just got this shitty marks!!DD: screwed it out D:.This is the FIRST exam pieces I start to practice lor but I just got 24 marks.=.= zzz. Because I'm not expressive enough? because I'm not HIAO enough?=.= suan liau.
c:6
OHMYGOD this is really the BOMB!!This piece, from the head right TILL the end, I totally dont know what SHIT am I playing.=.= I dont think I'm jazzy, I dont think I hit the right note either!!=.= zzz but it gave me a huge 25 MARKS!!!O.O oh gosh, how could I believe it??!!o.O it was tooooo surprising man.=.= anyway, cheers for me too~xD and ccy could 27 marks for this part, so god lar~x) cheers for her too!=D

Scales & Appregios
Aiya as I said, I HATE THIS PART VERY VERY MUCHHHHHH D:.and, this is also the part that I start to practice 3 weeks before my exam.=.= dead betul. Even my trial examiner said I would FAIL this part if I do not buck up. My teacher also very anxious about this, keep on advising me to practice scales, said:" exam pieces u can't expect how many marks he or she give you, but the scales you can study de, you can memorize de, so if you do well, it can ensure you to get high marks." BLAH i dont care I just know I HATE scales!!!T.T but because I dont want to disappoint my that too-good teacher, I put my effort to practice practice practice!=.= damn torturing man.alas I stil can get 18 marks, beh pai lah :D *nose high up in the air* and my teacher was so happy to read this marks, til 眉开眼笑.LOL.


Sight-reading
AS I ALWAYS SAID, sight reading is the WORST thing I've ever did.=.= but hor the piece that examiner gave me was entitled, "Ballet in Paris"!!WHEE!!BALLET!!:DDD when I came over with this title I was so excited lol.but IT WAS STILL AN EXAM, so I guai guai start playing the piece LOUSILY.OMG, I really dont know what am I playing =X seriously!! but I could get 15 marks o.O that was totally unexpected.从天而降,I must say.x)

Aural
BLAH, aural, I dont know what am I doing zzz. During my practice with my teacher, during my trial examination, I did it really no difference like SHIT. The listening to the lower part I TOTALLY CANT COMPREHEND =( but I still 勉为其难地lalala. Then sing the lower part, duhhhh I don't know lar. Modulation, I dont know what am I saying because I totally cant identify what was it!!D: about the discussion part, NAH forget about it. staccato, legato, lively, sad....the piece memang 好坏掺半!!!=.= zzz so I just simply gang lalala. but stil get 14 marks O.O sot de, till now I still cant believe lor.

Total marks
117>>3 MARKS MORE TO MERIT!!ARGH!!!

Well, I cant complain about it edy lahh. I can pass the exam I already must 杀鸡还神，谢天谢地，still dream for higher marks? NAH forget about it. I really lack of practice that time =X as everything crumpled together.Imagine that time mid-term examination is just around the corner, my ballet examination is just a blink of eye, sooo many schoold activities stuff to do, AND START PRACTICING A:1 AND SCALES JUST 3 WEEKS BEFORE EXAM?

so, I can get 117 marks, I really must thank god.:D

THANK GOD :D

and of course I must thank my dear teacher Bella.

THANK YOU TEACHER BELLA :D  

And for those who taking piano examinations this year/next year, ALL THE BEST TOO!!:D

请不要过火！

你每一次做出这样的事，难道你不会觉得很羞耻？
你以为你这样做很可爱？很帅？很聪明？！！
我只想赐你一个词。

神经病！！！！！D:

请你不要太过分。
你一次又一次在facebook写出莫名其妙且不合情理的东西，我都忍气吞声，我都尝试忽略，因为我只想小事化无。
可是你好像非闹大不可，每天写这种东西，你以每一个人看了会觉得你很伟大？你很棒？
表现自己不是这样表现的！！！！！
我现在能做的，只有尽量删除，尽量挽救，好让结果不会那么严重。D=

请你不要那么过火。
再说，我可重来没有去勾引你的朋友，是他自己要这样，我当然想逃避但却逃避不了。
为什么你却认为我是罪魁祸首？！！
当时被你侮辱的情况还记忆犹新呢。
对，我是不漂亮，可是我相信我自己拥有一种每人独有的气质！！
不要以为你很了不起而说出那么上人的字眼。
你并不会很帅！！！！！而且我比你瘦多了！！！！！！
他妈的D=

我之所以不去想你朋友告状是因为我不想难做人。
说你，你一定会不高兴。而且，一定会被你讨厌且毁谤得够够力！！！
所以，不要以为我怕了你而在微笑哈腰，谄媚着你！！
恶心，恶心！！！

请你不要变本加厉。
不要以为我怕了你！！！
我说过，我还没发出我真正的马力，当我的肝被烹煮到最高温度时，后果，

你可想而知！！！！:(

梦境

Well, this is what had happened.

话说我们图书管理员在Dewan开会（不要问我为什么在那里莫名其妙地开会），但我却没有看到秋豪的影子zzz。然后开会开到一半，静伊突然发火（根本就不可能zzz），然后阔步离开dewan。奇怪的是没有人去找她 o.O 然后我也不懂怎样结束了开会。

之后过了几天，我们又跑回去dewan（不知道做什么zzz），然后不懂谁才讲静伊不见很多天了（？！）。然后我们就很着急（废话），快步跑到dataran（不要问我为什么去那里），然后我就看见译骏很紧张地（其实是很夸张地）拿出电话来打给她，可是打不通。然后我也一样尝试，也是不成功。当我想再打过去时，安霓突然大喊：“找到了找到了！！！”（好像在喊timing SWT=.=)，手指一直在指着bilik pengawas的方向。=.=然后我们就很紧张地跑过去，竟看见欣丽在那里大力挥着她的iPhone，指使我们快点过来 =.= swt.

然后bilik pengawas 那里竟变成了一个地窖（？！！！）。然后静伊就站在门口对我们咧嘴笑！！@.@然后很多人就一直问她哎呀你去了哪里啊吓死人咩etc.etc。我也问她：“你一直躲在这里没有出来？”然后她就回答：“没有啊。我等你们都放学回家后出来回我家，然后第二天早早来学校并躲在这里。已有好几天我这样做了~” 梦里的我听后点了点头（还点头？！）还哦~了一会（还哦？！）醒来后回想起来，她这样做不是很幼稚很无聊吗 zzz 所以我说很荒谬>>她绝对不会做这种事情的。我竟然还点头并哦！离谱！！

然后静伊就带我每一众人进去地窖里面。里面竟然是一个摩登有现代化的地方？！！o.O 然后她就带我们去踏一个不知叫什么但却很像空中浮板的东西（？） ，踏上它十秒后，它就会带你到下楼去（不要问我下楼是哪里）。过后静伊二话不说就踏上去并下楼了。但我，佩萱和诗韵却一直在玩那个踏板，一直踏上去又踏下来，反反复复来来去去玩了很多次=.= zzz。直到最后静伊突然大骂（不可能！）说：“一直在玩那个踏板！！很好玩是吗？！”我们才乖乖站上那个踏板，静静等待十秒钟。zzz。then突然听到一股很刺耳的铃声？我们就很害怕，以为发生了什么火灾什么天灾。

然后我就醒了。

醒后才发觉原来那铃声是家里电话的铃声 =.= zzz 真是汗死。

总之，自从那件事以后，我每一晚都会发梦，而且梦境越来越离谱！！=.=不懂在搞什么鬼，总之每天的梦境，每一天都越来越神经！！！=.= 害到我不能美美地睡上一觉，每天起来后还是很累。=.=

还有啊，黄静伊和王佩萱啊，你们到底给我吃了什么药，为什么几乎每一次睡觉我都会梦见你们的啊？=.= 晚觉也好午觉也好，你们绝对会窥入我的梦境！o.O 是我太想念你们了？o.O 害我睡不好觉...=.= 快点跟我道歉~x)

睡觉发梦，是祸是福？

但梦得越来越离谱，越来越荒谬，是不是有什么预兆？o.O

会不会我有一晚，梦见他们和我和好，但醒来后  却发现  只是南柯一梦？