@#$%^&*!!!

你是一个超级大烂人 WTF.

我们一家人没有出去就算了，现在我要出去你也说

不？？？！！！！！

我现在已经是中四了，

不是中一了kay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我明白你担心我的安危，

更明白你担心我会荒废学业，

但是你有没有听过，

"没有放手，你根本得不到什么"这个道理？？

我是你女儿，但并不代表你可以捆绑我的自由！！！！

该做什么的时候我会去做，不该做的时候我不会去做！！！

Did I made myself CLEAR???

拜托不要一直绑着我好吗？？？？！！

我又不是一个星期每一天都出去！！

你自己数数看，我们一家人有多久没有出去了？？？！！！

王-白-黛！！！！！！！！！！！！！

你要我了解你，但是

你有没有了解过我？？！

Never ever talk again and

SHUT UP!!

or else dont blame me to

SCREW YOU UP.

I'M IN TOTAL ANGER NOW.

You're the first one to reach my highest boiling point!!!

SHIT.

Indah Khabar Drpd Rupa.

以前，我还很花痴地憧憬着那一时刻的到来。

我还一直因此而时常

看不起自己。

当那事可真的来了，

我却发现，

事情并没有如此美好。

快乐的感觉从来没有萦绕着我的心梁，

反之，

是深深的烦躁与不安。

我不知道要怎么面对你。

我不知道我因该怎样跟你说，你才会明白我在说什么？

我真的希望我可以正当的，令你满意。

我真的很害怕你到底会不会因此而失望透顶？

你说你明白，但那是真的吗？

无论如何，

我真的很想对你说，

你做了一个非常错误的决定。

我，

绝对不是一个在名单内的选择。

我是说过，

感觉决定一切，

那这一次，

我们是不是应该再次相信感觉？

我真的好想大声答应，

但我根本没有那个心理准备。

请原谅我的自私，

也请原谅我的幻想。

我的选择。

很多时候，我选择隐藏自己的情绪。

尽管，我已在崩溃的边缘。

我只想说

拜托。

不要在做了决定后

再跑过来好言安慰。

没有人会对你那虚情的慰籍

有一丝一缕的心动。

就这样。

The same feeling =.=

OMGG.

It already passed for sooooooooooo long and,

I'M STILL TOTALLY MIND WITH IT.

=(

I REALLY CANT CONTROL MYSELF ANY LONGER.

Everyday stuff inside my pillow and scream?swt.

By whatever means,

PLEASE LET THE FEELING DIE AWAY FROM ME.

I dont wanna think of it anymore.please.

But, i everyday have to see it and, even one glimpse of it really struck me super hard =.=

Oh goshhhhhhhhhhhh, I really feel 失落 can :(

I really cant take it anymore.

Please, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee let my mind forget about it okay?shit.

It's not of the place

but the event.

I WANTED TO EXPERIENCE THE EVENT.

Not the place, not the fame.

Just,

I wanted to try it out with myself.

And it's over,

and,

It will definitely be my regrets after I had complete my secondary school life.

I'M NOT BLAMING,

just,

I REALLY FEEL STRUCK CAN :(

最后，

yiien，快点儿康复啦~呵呵

我有很多话想跟你谈。xD

加油啦 :) 

♥

Nagoya, Japan ♥ -First day

HOHOHO finally update edy hahaha. :P
Waited long right? eager right? xD *say yes please

Well, first day is the orientation day.

I think nothing much to talk about, and it was SIBEH SIEN.=.=

 Took pic with a background of the orientation board(?).

 The pathway to our rooms.This is jiayun, and she's really cute ♥

 Ziru :D

Hoho the decorations in concorde inn.Merry Christmas~:D (like tooo late liau =.=)

 camhowred with batch mate before the course starts :)

 Self-intro time :)

My group, group 2 ♥

Our masterpiece!:D

(for some activity which require to bentang)

My group sedang bentang :D

 Group pitcha ♥

group 2, 2-rific!:D

Ziru, me and keqian :) 

form 3 kwang-hua rians!!lol

The room :)

 Camhowred in the room

 

 Ziru's toothpaste is sooo cute can!haha :D

See, nothing right?=.=

day 2 onwards will be more interesting lahh.

Stay tuned~

Thanks for ur patience for waiting me so long to update xD

Nagoya, Japan - my love.  :)
♥

I just dont know why; :(

I know it had already passed for a long time, and I shall not ever think about it, AGAIN.

But, when I saw everything was on progress, it struck me hard and

I really cant hold my feelings any longer.

I played my part very seriously, I knew what I am doing, in the end,

I DONT EVEN TOUCH AN INCH OF MY DREAMS.

I did not do anything, I HATE it very very much,

BUT IT WAS SIMPLY STUFFED IN MY HANDS WITHOUT ANY REASONS.

Irony, no?

It was really rejecting.

I KNEW i shud not blame it anymore, I KNEW I must not dream anymore,

but when school starts,

and I was looking everything in my eyes,

I REALLY WANTED TO BROKE DOWN AND CRY.

Especially when, the worst thing was stuffed into me, without my permission.

SORRY CANT CURE EVERYTHING, OKAY?

A decision really can make someone hurts deeply.

I really cant figure it out,

WHAT SHALL I DO?

I shall strike my best in my dreams,

or shud I leave it be so that I wont get hurt?

I tried very hard to cover my feelings so that

I wouldnt need to express it here.

But obviously, it was EPIC FAILED :(

我很好，我没事。

 至少，

在你面前。

DONT ASK ME =X

Ohhhhhhhh.

DONT THINK YOU'RE ELDER THEN ME YOU'RE GREAT ENOUGH.

I'm not born to be bully by you.

Dont think you can keep sarcasting and ctitisize me without any reason.

I tell you,

YOU'RE THE WORST IDIOT IN THE WORLD.

Shut up or

dont blame me.

SCREW YOU.

My first post in 2011 竟然是这样的。
可悲啊 =.=