Saturday, July 31, 2010

信不信由你。

I know I'm wrong.
But you guys didnt tell me what I'm wrong for.
And you guys expect me to go and find out myself?
Without a hint, how should I know?
How should I find?
I really don't know.



You guys tell me and I'll change.
信不信由你。
真心的朋友会相信,非者无论我说破了嘴也没有用。


I really see you guys as friends but I think you guys don't think so.
I'm really concern about you all.
Again,
信不信由你。


Mind set for pmr.
I let this to change by itself.
Of course I hope we can be friends again.
But, it ALL depend on you guys.


Jiayou together for pmr =)
I love you, guys.CERTAINLY.
But,
信不信由你。 



But I don't know why I'm always the one being HATED.
MY FAULT, okay. 



I'M NOT BLAMING ANYONE.
信不信由你。

Happy Birthday to me! :)

A present from my family.
Thank you sooooooo much~xD
♥ it so much.=D



Thank you.=)



Thanks to those that wished me today!
And thanks to some of 3A friends and Kelab Yoyo Cina for singing birthday song for me~:D
And of course my sampat ballet friends :D
Thank you guys!xD



A birthday is meaningless without blessings from friends.




Happy Birthday to me!:D

Sunday, July 25, 2010

=(

完全被冷落。


很不好受=(



不想再说什么。



一是我不明白,二是我不知道我该怎么做。




我终于明白你之前的话:“不成正比。”


不同的是,我何止不成正比,还付诸东流




失望。
早知道不要去看你的blog.

Friday, July 23, 2010

I DON'T KNOW!!!

我是真的很在乎,很关心,很需要你们。









可是,为什么你们感觉不到我的真诚?




到底要怎样,你们才会对我有所感觉?





我真的不知道我该怎么做才好,而怎么做才是对的!!

Nothing.

很多东西,我都不知道。
我明白,那是因为你们不想让我知道。

我没觉得什么,因为你们有你们自己的空间。




但是,








那真的很撕心裂肺






你们认为我的漠不关心,对我而言可是最大的人身攻击。
我不知道我能做什么,只能继续尝受被蒙在鼓里的感觉。
要呼吸,却不能。



啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Stupid thing,making everybody so stressfull.






ISH.

Miserable.

Wanted to spit it all OUT.
But,







I don't think it is suitable for it to do now.



To you,
I don't know if you're talking about me.
but my feelings tell me so.
I HOPE IT'S NOT.
because,


you're always my beloved friend.

To,my beloved ones

You guys are lost since everything happen.
CHEER UPPPPP!!!!=D
If i am giving you advice, I would like to say:


FOLLOW YOUR HEART.


It will explain everything.=)




No matter how, I'm always ready to help.
I would respect your decisions, either.




TRUST YOURSELF.=) 

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Stupidity.

I know I shouldn't write this, but I really can't depress my feelings any longer.
I felt stupid. STUPID.
S-T-U-P-I-D.


I had my freedom of speech.
I can write what I wanted to, under the circumstances I didn't touch any sensitive issue.
I have the choice to express my feelings.
I can chat about things I like, I can do whatever I like.

SO, WHY BOTHER TO SAY ABOUT ME?

I don't know WHY must you guys bother to talk about me.
Especially, to someone so CLOSE to me.
I can lead my own lifestyle (although I know it is unhealthy),and I don't think you guys have the right to control it.
Seriously, who you think you are?

I address you guys as adults.
But you guys are acting as though you're still a CHILD.
Childish, I must say.
Even MY BELOVED RYAN TAN xD also act more mature than you guys.

Please understand the situation.
You're CONTROLING my life, not COMMENTING my llife.
BEWARE OF WHAT YOU'VE DONE.
Please =.=

My life ALWAYS had to be restricted to what you guys had said.
I AM emo, but that doesn't mean that you can say whatever you like.
Please lah, you guys had been 40++ years old already, not 04 years old.=.=
Don't think you guys are smart. I felt disgusting.

Even my friends also know what I want and what I hate.
They can't agree in my every way, but they know how to RESPECT it.
But, you?
You're 40++ people, and yet we're only 15 years old.
A big gap of 20 something years old.=.=
悲哀, I must say.

If you were reading it, and you got the point, GOOD.
So, I believe you know WHAT YOU SHOULD DO.
But if you didn't, TOO BAD.
I had no choice but to tell you rudely--SHUT UP, PLEASE. 

I never intended to write something so rude in my blog.
So, I hope you guys got my message.
=.=.

2055年,聪明的徐若宣领悟了一个大道理:人长大后,会变得愚蠢。
2010年,聪明的张凯宁(有样学样)领悟了一个大道理:人长大后,会变得八卦。




Utmost Stupidity.

White flag.

I saw it.
I knew it.
I realize it.







Just,









I don't want to surrender.

But by this time, when I catch that glimpse,
I knew I had no choice but to put a white flag to you.
I'm totally defeated. I'm lost.
You won, but you hurt me badly.





If you really think I'm NOTHING to you, don't treat me so good then.
The better you treat me, the more it hurts, the more I can't escape from it.
My resistance is bad. You KNEW that.
So,
please help me.






Goodbye.